Misty

I have an issue! My preacher at church, not HPC, but The New Testament Church of Christ, where I am literally forced to go, said something today about speaking in tongues. He said it is noting more than people who babble words and work themselves into a frenzy and think they have caught the Holy Ghost. I have an major problem with this. NOWHERE in the Bible does it say that the Holy Ghost no longer touches people and brings them to speak in tongues during prayer. My family's church says that it was used to prove to the people that God exists, but only the apostles could to it, and that apostles were the people who Jesus appointed and saw him face to face. If that was true, then how in Acts does it tell you that anyone who repents can receive the gift of the Holy Spirit? The preacher made good points on why to pray, how to pray, and somewhat on what to pray for. But when he said something about speaking in tongues all being fake and nothing but our own mind it seriously bothered me. I've never done it, but I know people that tell me about their experiences. How can that many people experience it and it not be real? How can people be drunk in the Holy Spirit and not know what they are doing for hours at a time if it is all made up in our own mind? I'm sorry, humans come up with some good mental fakes, but that's not one that you can just fake and move on.

It just agitates me that my family's church is like that. And I've tried talking to them, pointing out things to them, and I get the "I'm to young to understand" or "I'm over analyzing" or "I the adult, I'm right" speeches. It doesn't make sense to me, and they don't do anything but confuse me more. Every simple question I ask them turns into an argument, and I always just give up because after an hour of trying not to be disrespectful, you start to want to, and I just give up before I actually say something mean to them. I just hate being told I'm wrong, and that I'm too young to know anything. How do they know what's in my heart or in my mind? That's the only reason I'm not baptized. I know I'll get in trouble from my "religious" family if I do outside of their church. I would love nothing more than to be baptized by Dr. Tweeze at HPC, but I know that isn't going to happen anytime soon. It's so difficult to get through to them, and if anyone has any ideas please share. I could use all the help I can get.