tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-52262278626242705132024-03-13T00:25:21.650-05:00MistyMistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.comBlogger36125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-11844706173438735482008-01-15T23:33:00.000-06:002008-01-15T23:37:19.039-06:00newwww poemzerz<p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">New..just doesn't have a title yet</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">yeah...</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">it has a new style</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">if you've ever read an Ellen Hopkins book you'd understand</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">but hopefully you haven't</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">some purple</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">and drug use</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">but it kinda helps me understand addiction</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">and learn why i never want to get involved</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">lol</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">so anyway...read the untitled poem..</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">comment me</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">help me with a title</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">it's very short</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">boring</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">but kinda different</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">idk</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">you tell me<br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">haha</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">so here it is..</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">finally.<br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Lying </p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Hiding</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: right;" align="right">Running from the truth</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Crying</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Trying</p> <p class="MsoNormal">But never succeeding</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Lost</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Afraid </p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: right;" align="right">Terrified of finding</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Death </p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Life</p> <p class="MsoNormal">I’m somewhere in between</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Premonition</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Intuition</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: right;" align="right">Mine aren’t feeling very well</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Needing</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Wanting</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Help from you</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Begging</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Pleading</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: right;" align="right">For a savior</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Forgetting</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Losing</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Everything I’ve worked for</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Fading</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Falling</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: right;" align="right">Into the world</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Becoming</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Changing</p> <p class="MsoNormal">I’m another mime</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Unavoidable</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Inevitable</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: right;" align="right">Change is necessary to survive</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Misunderstand</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Reiterate</p> <p class="MsoNormal">What I need of Him.</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Find</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Discover</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: right;" align="right">The way I’ve changed</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Remember</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Decide</p> <p class="MsoNormal">That He is what I need to survive</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Love</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Devotion</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: right;" align="right">My God gives it to me</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Understanding</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Explanation</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Opens my eyes </p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Beginning</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Starting</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: right;" align="right">To run the other way</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Turning</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Changing</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Back to the One who loves me</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Un-blinded</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Un-muted</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: right;" align="right">He gave me a voice</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Determination</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Dedication</p> <p class="MsoNormal">From here on out</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Never swaying</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">Love unchanging</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: right;" align="right">To my Everlasting God!</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;" align="center">~Amen</p>Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-86279910302161055132007-12-13T12:26:00.000-06:002007-12-13T12:38:06.547-06:00Saving Me!/Enough<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Saving Me</span><br /><br /><br />Let it fall, let it pour,<br /><br />As I'm clinging to the floor.<br /><br />I'm lost and alone,<br /><br />I can't do this on my own.<br /><br /><br /><br />Let it come down like rain,<br /><br />As I'm clinging to my pain.<br /><br />I'm scared to let go<br /><br />I've fallen so low.<br /><br /><br /><br />Let me drown in the storm.<br /><br />I do not deserve to be adorned.<br /><br />I'm not the same,<br /><br />I hate the person I became.<br /><br /><br /><br />Let it shower over me,<br /><br />As I'm clinging to the key.<br /><br />I'm afraid to open the door,<br /><br />Even though it's saved me before.<br /><br /><br /><br />Let the mercy come down!<br /><br />As I'm embracing the crown!<br /><br />He's the only one I believe.<br /><br />His words will never deceive.<br /><br /><br /><br />So bring on the grace<br /><br />Even when I'm a disgrace.<br /><br />I may try to run,<br /><br />But that's when His work has only begun.<br /><br /><br /><br />So seek me out, Oh God!<br /><br />Do not leave me where I trod!<br /><br />This world is too much for me.<br /><br />Please, just set me free!<br /><br /><br /><br />He finds where I hide<br /><br />He leads where I ride<br /><br />He lifts when I fall<br /><br />He answers when I call<br /><br /><br /><br />He searches what I seek<br /><br />He strengthens when I'm weak<br /><br />He dies because I sin<br /><br />He lives to begin.<br /><br />~Misty<br /><br /><br /><br /><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" >Enough</span><br /><br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >My stomach isn't flat enough<br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >My height isn't short enough<br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >My voice isn't loud enough<br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >My hair isn't long enough.<br /><br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >My eyes aren't big enough<br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >My lips aren't pouty enough<br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >My lashes aren't thick enough<br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >My teeth aren't white enough.<br /><br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >My nose isn't small enough<br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >My face isn't thin enough<br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >My skin isn't tan enough<br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >My waist isn't curved enough.<br /><br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >My arms aren't strong enough<br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >My legs aren't cute enough<br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >My hands aren't slim enough<br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >My ears aren't pierced enough.<br /><br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >I've simply come to decide<br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >That I've nothing to hide.<br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >Nobody that has my trust<br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >Can make me believe I'm pretty enough.<br /><br /></span><span style=";font-family:lucida grande;font-size:100%;" >~Misty Farmer</span><br /><br />so i've been writing a lot lately, it's probably all that's going to go on here for a while.<br />i really need feed back on these-even if it's just to tell me they suck, lol.<br /></div>Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-1029696268532548142007-11-21T00:53:00.001-06:002007-11-21T01:41:08.355-06:00k, even though nobody reads my blogi'm going to post...<br /><br />this is a poem i wrote, instead of doing an actual post<br />it kinda just came to me<br />because i've been doing a lot of thinking lately.<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Me</span><br /><br />falling back to the world<br />slipping once again<br />i don't know how i got here<br />into these troubles i let in<br /><br />i never should of let go<br />of the one who held me up<br />i never should of given in<br />to the world that gave me no luck<br /><br />a desire for him is more than i can stand<br />i don't know how to go back <br />how do i seek him<br />when he knows what i lack?<br /><br />my heart is so lost<br />my mind is too<br />my soul is all i have<br />and it doesn't know what to do<br /><br />i don't even know who <span style="font-weight:bold;">i</span> am <br />but i know i'm not who i want to be<br />i'm afraid of living<br />i'm afraid of me<br /><br />i'm searching for a way out<br />calling to him for peace<br />but i haven't heard a reply<br />and i've waited for weeks.<br /><br />i can't help but wonder<br />has he let me go?<br />has he forgotten?<br />how am i to know?<br /><br />i miss my God<br />i want to find him<br />before i get so lost<br />my heart's fire has gone dim<br /><br />how do i go back<br />how do i become free<br />how do i let the world go<br />how do i be me?<br /><br /><3 MistyMistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-18442263789100540882007-11-07T11:57:00.000-06:002007-11-07T12:02:44.168-06:00omg!!I JUST CAME UP WITH THE MOST AWESOME RECIPE FOR A SCRAMBLED EGG SANDWICH!!<br /><br />INGREDIENTS:<br />2 EGGS<br />2 'PINCHES' SLAP YA MAMMA<br />2 'PINCHES' SALT<br />3 'PINCHES' SUGAR<br />1 TABLE SPOON <span style="font-weight:bold;">HONEY MUSTARD</span><br /><br />DIRECTIONS:<br />TURN HEAT ON STOVE TOP TO MEDIUM<br />CRACK BOTH EGGS INTO PAN<br />ADD ALL INGREDIENTS<br />STIR UNTIL THE EGGS ARE SCRAMBLED<br />**MUST DO IT THIS WAY-NOT IN A CUP**<br />DO NOT HARD SCRAMBLE-A LITTLE WET IS OK!!<br /><br />PUT ON TOAST WITH MAYO AND/OR CHEESE AND ENJOY <br />:)<br /><br />I'M A STINKIN GENIUS!!<br />LOL<br />I JUST HAD TO SHARE THATMistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-38536498549225862482007-10-31T23:06:00.000-05:002007-10-31T23:22:53.446-05:00so like o.m.geeeez....welcome to by far the most random entry ever, enjoy<br /><br />tonight i was able to go to refuge<br />and i got the holy spirit smack-down.<br />the title of the lesson was "fully committed"<br />and lately i know i haven't been committed to anything but feeling sorry for myself<br />by the end of the night i was crying and snoting and it was just awesome<br />i've been so tied up in thinking only about myself<br />and what i'm going to do<br />and how i'm going to get through it<br />i never once thanked everyone that had been there for me<br />and i had never once taken that step back to realize that i was being so caught up in myself<br />and that i was not going about my situation the right way at all<br />acting out<br />and cussing<br />and being the person i hated being<br />does not make anything better<br />how is anybody going to take me seriously if i act like that<br />i'm supposed to be a servant of God-but how can i convince anyone that my heart is there if i'm acting in an un-Godly way?<br />all i needed to know was that i was loved, and i thank tori, jordan, mrs. margret, mrs. paula, candice, blake, alex, jake, emily-just everyone-because you've helped me get through everything that's been keeping me down<br />just by telling me that you've been thinking about me<br />or praying for me<br />or that you're happy to see me<br />it makes me so happy-i know that someone cared enough to even mention it.<br />in the last year i've changed so much<br />and i love it<br />and it hurts so bad to think that i was slipping<br />but now to know that i've got some of the most awesome people in my corner<br />that Jesus somehow put there for me<br />knowing that i would need them for things like this<br />it's just awesome.<br /><br />i was thinking earlier what if i had never gone to refuge that first time<br />what if i had never met tori<br />or gotten to know jordan<br />and gone to the closer christmas party<br />and met O.G. and mrs. paula<br />and blake and candice<br />there are so many what if's out there and without them make me terrified of who or where i would be today<br /><br />i'm so happy right now that i'm being incredibly random and just full of thankfulness and thoughts that i don't know what to do. i could probably run laps around the anex right now.<br /><br />i'll definitely keep you updated on what's going on with me<br />keep praying for me<br />and i'll always be praying for you<br /><br /><3 MistyMistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-90267181967204948092007-09-29T13:10:00.001-05:002007-09-29T13:17:04.491-05:00sooooit's been over a month since i've posted<br />so i reckon it's about time<br />to update people that don't get to talk to me all the time about what's been going on in my life.<br />i've been allowed to go to church twice since july<br />which is way better than not at all<br />i'm always working<br />so there isn't really anything interesting going on in my life right now<br />except that i got a new puppy<br />and i'll have pictures of her up really soon<br />yes yes<br />she is a corgie<br />and incredibly cute!<br />that's about it for now<br />moucho love to my peoples<br /><br /><3 MistyMistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-48552569434914242112007-08-21T21:43:00.000-05:002007-08-21T21:49:42.789-05:00AHHHHH!!!ok, so i've decided i'm pretty much awesome, hands down. i wrote an e-mail to my teacher in charge of the Fellowship of Christian Students club at school about some of my ideas for this next year. this is the message i wrote her:<br /><br /> Hey! I'm sorry this isn't going to be a formal letter. I just wanted to run a few ideas by you for FCS to participate in this year. The first thing that God has really put on my heart-and I personally feel it's not addressed enough-is abortion. There is a nation-wide event called "day of silence." You can read some about it at <a rel="nofollow">www.standtrue.com </a> . It's really awesome. The whole point is "can you lose your voice for a day for those that will never have one?" I think it could be a good opportunity to show not only our rights of protest-but the ability to maybe change someone's heart. I know French Settlement from the student point of view, and I've been hearing about girls in my class getting abortions since the seventh grade. Maybe if we show them, by participating in this "activity" they will learn a new out look. The main thing I need is permission to do this-and I know it would be easier with someone on the faculty backing me up. Please pray about it and get back to me. Another thing I want to look into doing another one of my passions-one I picked up from being around Jordan Guitreau too long- is <span style="border-bottom: 1px dashed rgb(0, 102, 204); cursor: pointer; height: 1em;" id="lw_1187750357_0">Africa</span>. I know we can't go to Africa-even though that would be totally awesome if a high school Christian group did a mission trip-but I know it's not going to happen. I was thinking more along the lines of asking students to participate in something called "<a rel="nofollow">Children's Cup.</a>" It's an organization that helps the orphanages in Africa. You could go to the site and read some of the stories and see the pictures and understand why I'm so heart broken over it. I know we really can't do much with our limited resources, but I would like so see, seeing as how I know the founder of children's cup, if he could do me a favor. They have "change" the world cups. It's a cup that just has information on it and you put any spare change in it. That money gets turned in and goes to helping get food and medicine and clothes for the children in the orphanages in Africa. I know not very many people in <span style="border-bottom: 1px dashed rgb(0, 102, 204); cursor: pointer; height: 1em;" id="lw_1187750357_1">French Settlement</span> have money-but they don't have to participate if they don't want to. We can hand out the cups and if we don't see them again then at least we tried-but I really want to see our FCS students fired up about helping out the world we live in. And finally, my last idea, which I know is out of the box and completely unlikely-but I want to plan a small one day mission trip to serve breakfast and speak to the homeless people in <span style="border-bottom: 1px dashed rgb(0, 102, 204); cursor: pointer; height: 1em;" id="lw_1187750357_2">New Orleans</span>. I really think it could help open the eyes of the students that see homeless people as stupid people that deserve the life that they are living-but what most of them don't see is most of these people didn't choose to live this way. I think it would be an eye opener. Yes, I know we don't have money, but we could raise enough to get what we need. Car washes, bake sales, fund raising "activities", selling shirts...pretty much anything. This may even draw more people into FCS. I see it like this-all the other clubs get to do some kind of field trip during the year-why can't the Christians have one? This may be our chance to Stand Up, Stand Out, and Change the World. It's pretty much the saying I live by. Thanks for listening, and please pray about it and get back to me as soon as you can. <br /><br />God bless,<br /><br />Misty Farmer<br /><br /><br />then....this is what she wrote me back....<br /><br /><br />Hi, i am so happy to hear from you and hear what is on your heart. I can sense your enthusiasm and you have a lot of wonderful suggestions and ideas to help our club grow. That has been my prayer for years, for God to send me students that are committed to the calling and to give us creative outreaches to touch the people around us. We will start to meet next week. We will talk about all of this later. I just want you to know i love your ideas and we will see what we can do.<div> </div><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div> </div>Bless you sweetie!!!!<div style="text-align: center;"> </div> <div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div><div style="text-align: center;"><div style="text-align: left;">Charlaine Whann<br />French Settlement High Science Teacher<br />Come and see what God has done, how awesome his works in man's behalf! Psalms 66:5<br /></div><br /><br />lets talk about stinkin score!!!!<br />i'm so pumped right now!!<br />AHHHHHHH<br />I'M SO HAPPY<br />ok, time to me to go to bed<br />g'night world!!<br /></div><br /><br /></div>Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-11755510714653084772007-08-12T02:22:00.000-05:002007-08-12T02:29:11.304-05:00soooooo<div style="text-align: center;">sorry that i haven't posted in like forever<br />i've been so busy<br />nothing has really changed<br />right now i'm working 6 days a week at a car dealership<br />but that's about to change because i'm going to be going crazy with that and school at the same time<br />and really other than that life has been extremely dull<br />my daily schedule is get up, shower, hair&makeup, dress, lunch, work, home, sleep, repeat.<br />that is my life<br />and my schedule as of monday is wake up even earlier that before, dressed for school, school, shower, hair&makeup, work, home, sleep, repeat.<br />how totally awesome is that??<br />no, not really<br />it's actually makes my days extremely long<br />and boring<br />hmmmmm<br />oh well<br />if anyone 17 or older needs a job<br />lemme know<br />i can hook you up with one making $7.50 an hour<br />sitting on your butt answering a phone<br />9-6 on saturdays<br />and fill in when i need a day off<br />and i do the same when you need a saturday off<br />whatever boats your float<br />but yep yep<br />like i said<br />lemme know if you're interested<br />i've gotta go to sleep-i have to get up early tomorrow<br />~Misty<br /></div>Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-78895401773047630672007-07-25T03:32:00.001-05:002007-07-26T23:51:16.236-05:00Help<div style="text-align: center;">can they tell I'm hurting<br />can they tell I'm sad<br />can they tell I'm sinking<br />can they tell I'm mad<br /><br />will they try to save me<br />will they lift a hand<br />they will try to help me<br />but only if they can<br /><br />can they tell I'm slipping<br />will they understand<br />I'm on my knees and crawling<br />unable to stand<br /><br />I can feel it pulling<br />deeper and deeper I go<br />sliding away from Him<br />pulled by sin and woe<br /><br />It took to long to leave<br />these depths I'd left behind<br />but now I'm falling back<br />I'm hurting and I'm blind<br /><br />I've been cut away<br />from the life I had<br />and now I'm letting go<br />I'm letting him be glad<br /><br />he'll never get me<br />and I've given up<br />it's so hard to change the heart<br />a father who's stuck<br /><br />he can't tell he's hurting me<br />he doesn't have a clue<br />he thinks I'm rebelling<br />I really just don't know what to do<br /><br />I've lost sight of what I wanted<br />and here I am still falling<br />I've given up hope<br />and just stopped stalling<br /><br />I know what's going to happen<br />and I shouldn't kid myself<br />I know I'm nothing<br />without God's help<br /><br />I'm too weak to ask<br />I'm to stubborn to try<br />I've almost given up<br />and now here I lie<br /><br />crying tears of agony<br />crying tears of pain<br />nothing on the outside's been changed<br />it's inside that'll never be the same<br /><br />I need His hands<br />I need His grace<br />I need to feel His presence<br />I need to touch His face<br /><br />I plead and beg<br />I call out His name<br />I ask for forgivness<br />I ask for rid of shame<br /><br />I ask Him here<br />to touch my soul<br />I ask Him here<br />to make me whole<br /><br />I feel it pulling<br />but up i go<br />I no longer feel hurting<br />I no longer feel woe<br /><br />I still need help<br />I still can't stand<br />but thanks to the one who strengthens me<br />I know one day I can<br /><br /><br /><br />yep yep, so this is another poem i wrote<br />it relates to a lot of stuff that's been going on....<br /><br />i'm happy-i got to go see everybody at closer tonight<br />which was pretty cool<br /><br />JASON AND KHIRA-I'M VERY UPSET THAT YOU WEREN'T THERE<br />I GOT THERE RIGHT AS IT ENDED AND YOU WEREN'T THERE TO SAY HEY TO ME<br />AND ANNOY ME (THAT'S FOR JASON, haha)<br /><br />anyway, it was still fun<br />and i hope i get to do it next week<br /><br />love yall!!<br /></div>Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-32025868448307719382007-07-25T03:00:00.000-05:002007-07-25T03:16:43.029-05:00slippingso, life's giving me a hard blow these last few weeks<br />my dad told me i'm not allowed to go back to healing place<br />ever<br />he told me africa was out of the question<br />and that i'm not allowed back in his house if i go<br />i love my dad<br />keep that in mind<br />but i'm so ticked off about what's going on<br />he and i talked one day about the church thing<br />and he told me that sunday was an obligation<br />that i had to go with him and mom<br />and that wednesday was not an obligation<br />that the bible just tells us to make sure we study his word<br />i think tori uses the words meditate and feeding your soul<br />which all mean the same thing<br />and that is what my family church does on wednesday<br />which is what i was doing at refuge and closer on wednesday and thursday nights<br />but i think that my dad is being hypocritical when he gives me the obligation speech<br />then a week later tells me i'm never allowed to go back<br />i'm sorry but i just don't get it<br />i'm told to obey my mom and dad<br />but how do i do that when i feel my dad has taken something away from me that i feel is too much a part of me to just simply be parted with it?<br />right now is when i feel like i need refuge the most<br />when i need God the most<br />and i know where i seek God doesn't matter<br />but something doesn't feel right doing it on my own in my bedroom<br />i want the worship band at refuge<br />i want the people around me that make me feel strong enough to be able to just pray<br />i don't know how to be who i've become without refuge and closer<br />and it really stinks to cry every time i think about never being allowed to go back<br />it's been 2 weeks because today will be my second wednesday not being able to go<br />and i'm mad<br />really stinkin mad<br />all i want is to be able to go back and listen to tweezy or mike hamon or t.o.<br />anybody<br />it's only been two weeks and i'm starting to not want to pray anymore<br />and i just cant help it<br />i lay in bed at night and say a small prayer for God to help me through this and cry<br />i want it to be over<br />like a bad dream<br />but every day i wake up and i'm still missing something<br />and i know what it is<br />but how do i get Him back without being able to go to the places where i found Him?Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-35025152212716163922007-07-12T23:02:00.001-05:002007-07-12T23:02:48.093-05:00Wayne's Addresswayne finally sent me a letter today from basic trainning! he told me to make sure to give his address out to everybody, so here it is:<br /><br />Sr Kirkfield, Wayne<br />VIV, 227 Ship:05<br />REcruit Trainning Command<br />3301 Indiana St.Great Lakes, IL<br />60088<br /><br />~MistyMistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-34045556596924162982007-07-11T13:24:00.000-05:002007-07-11T22:41:38.398-05:00............................<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">How do we know that we are Christians?</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">We walk around every day telling people that God is in our lives, but is He really?<span style=""> </span>Do we ever think of the things we do every day that glorify Him?<span style=""> </span>When you skip church to go to the movies, when you decide to get on the computer instead of read your bible, when you go to the mall instead doing quiet time, when you spend your money on clothes that God looks at and is disgusted-how are we glorifying Him?<span style=""> </span>He created this world, but man created his own version of it.<span style=""> </span>A world that says if you're not a size two you're not beautiful.<span style=""> </span>If you don't have amazing abs you're not handsome.<span style=""> </span>A world that tells you that drugs and alcohol are okay-and doing them during school makes you cool.<span style=""> </span>This world makes you think less of yourself.<span style=""> </span>Teens commit suicide every day because they aren't up to what the world wants them to be.<span style=""> </span>Why is this happening?<span style=""> </span>It's not because God is not in their lives…it's because the God that they know is so sugar coated that they begin to think just because I go to church once a week, sit in the front, and listen to every word I'm saved.<span style=""> </span>Going isn't what saves you.<span style=""> </span>Raising your hands in worship isn't what saves you.<span style=""> </span>Praying nice long wordy prayers aren't what saves you.<span style=""> </span>Making your heart as pure as your mind is in that moment, that's what saves you.<span style=""> </span>God can't control our hearts, if He could there would be no such thing as atheists…but God can look into our hearts and see where it is:<span style=""> </span>if it's in the world, or if it's in His hands.<span style=""> </span>We say we surrender our lives to God, but how much are we surrendering?<span style=""> </span>When we say surrender in a war we mean ok, we are giving up, you win.<span style=""> </span>When you surrender to God are you giving everything to Him?<span style=""> </span>Are you giving your eyes to Him?<span style=""> </span>Your ears to Him?<span style=""> </span>Your thoughts to Him?<span style=""> </span>What are you really giving Him?<span style=""> </span>We are supposed to be giving it all, but do we really?<span style=""> </span>How often do you go home from church and cuss at traffic the entire way?<span style=""> </span>How often do we get home from church and turn on HBO and watch a movie that has impurity, drugs, and alcohol?<span style=""> </span>We call ourselves Christians and we do or watch the very things that God finds disgusting.<span style=""> </span>Why?<span style=""> </span>To fit in with "the world" that man has made, not the world that God has made. This generation can be saved.<span style=""> </span>Not saying "Lord Lord" but making everything, including where we walk, what we speak, what we hear, and who our hearts beat for-making these things for God and God alone-that's what will save this generation.<span style=""> </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">Matthew 7:13-29 (NIV)</span></p> <p><span style="font-size:100%;"><sup>13</sup> "Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to <b style="">destruction</b>, and many enter through it. <sup id="en-TNIV-23337">14</sup> But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a <b style="">few find it</b>. <sup id="en-TNIV-23338">15</sup> "Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves. <sup id="en-TNIV-23339">16</sup> By their <b style="">fruit</b> you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thorn bushes, or figs from thistles? <sup id="en-TNIV-23340">17</sup> Likewise, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. <sup id="en-TNIV-23341">18</sup> A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit. <sup id="en-TNIV-23342">19</sup> Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. <sup id="en-TNIV-23343">20</sup> Thus, by their fruit you will recognize them.<b style=""><sup>21</sup> "Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only those who do the <u>will of my Father</u> who is in heaven.</b> <sup id="en-TNIV-23345">22</sup></span><span style="font-size:100%;">Many will say to me on that day, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?' Then I will tell them plainly,</span><span style="font-size:100%;"><sup id="en-TNIV-23346">23</sup><b style="">'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!' </b><sup>24</sup> "Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the <b style="">rock</b>.<sup>25</sup> The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it <b style="">did not fall</b>, because it had its foundation on the rock. <sup id="en-TNIV-23349">26</sup> But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on <b style="">sand</b>. <sup id="en-TNIV-23350">27</sup> The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and <b style="">it fell with a great crash."</b><o:p></o:p> </span></p> <b style=""><span style="font-size:100%;"> <sup id="en-TNIV-23351">28</sup> When Jesus had finished saying these things, the crowds were amazed at his teaching, <sup id="en-TNIV-23352">29</sup> </span><u><span style="font-size:100%;">because he taught as one who had authority, and not as their teachers of the law.</span></u></b>Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-56884529999450169942007-07-11T00:13:00.000-05:002007-07-11T00:17:31.389-05:00ok, two posts in one night :)<div style="text-align: center;">so i'm looking at different myspace pages...and i came across this video. i've seen it before, but this time it was harder for me to watch, and i don't even know why. it's really a moving thing to see, because it brings you out of what you're worrying about and makes you look at the big picture. go ahead and read my other blog first because i posted it like not five minutes before this one, but make sure to watch this video.<br />Moucho Love! <br />~Misty~<br /><br /><object width="425" height="350"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/86Q1h3F_eR4"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/86Q1h3F_eR4" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="350"></embed></object><br /><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><span style="font-size:180%;"> </span><br /></div>Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-70941537803138277092007-07-11T00:03:00.000-05:002007-07-11T00:07:02.750-05:00untitled poem<p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">so...this is an untitled poem i wrote a while back...so lemme know what you think of it :)</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">................................................................................<br /></span></p><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">Eternal life is what we seek</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">Meeting as one every week</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">Praising, and giving it all to You</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">Because this is what You are due</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><o:p> </o:p></span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">We fall to our knees to be humble</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">And we promise never to stumble</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">The words we say may be strong</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">But they do not last in our hearts long</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><o:p> </o:p></span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">We leave this place </span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">Into a world of disgrace</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">Corrupting our mind</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">Full of thoughts unkind</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><o:p> </o:p></span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">After a week we are back</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">Seeking what we lack</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">We beg for forgiveness from sin</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">And ask that we never let it win</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><o:p> </o:p></span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">And once again we return</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">To the world that will lead us to burn</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">We know what is right and wrong</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">And in the world we do not belong</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><o:p> </o:p></span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">So why do we slip?</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">Is what we say not catching the Father's grip?</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">You want a clean slate </span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">Before it's too late</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><o:p> </o:p></span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">But what does your praise matter</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">If it's no more than meaningless chatter</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">Is it what's in your heart that you pray?</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">Or is it simply what's in your mind to say?</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><o:p> </o:p></span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">So go ahead, give Him your "all"</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">Because in the end it'll be his call</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">He knows you inside and out</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">He knows your every belief and doubt</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;"><o:p> </o:p></span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">Stand strong in faith</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">And He will keep you safe</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><p style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:100%;">From the world He created</span></p><div style="font-family: georgia; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia;font-size:100%;" > The world I have defeated</span></div><span style="font-size:180%;"> </span>Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-74421538908392652592007-07-06T00:28:00.000-05:002007-07-06T00:39:55.222-05:00readingso, i've started reading the old testament...because i feel like i know the new testament, lol. <br /><br />anyway, tonight i read ruth<br />which is like stinkin awesome, because ruth is David's grand-mother....which makes her like Jesus' great great great great great great most totally awesome great great great great......great....grandmother. her story is so cool though.<br /><br />you would have to read it to find out the whole story, but one part of it is so cool to me<br />when you think of mother-in-laws and daughter-in-laws today you think of wwf smackdown.<br />with ruth and naomi it wasn't like that. when naomi moved back home after her two sons died, she told ruth and her other daughter-in-law to go back home to their own families. well, the other one did, but ruth was like nope, where ever you go i go, your God will be my God and your people will be my people. she had so much respect for this woman. and in doing so she met the man that would marry her-boaz. it's just so awesome to me, because what would of happened if she would of went home and never met boaz? would there be a david? would their be different books in the bible than there are now? it's just cool to me-because the what if's of life have always amazed me. like, i know that if i had never gone to church with shae that one night i would never be who i am today and wouldn't have the most awesome friends in the world. idk...i guess i'm kinda rambling...it just makes you realize that God does work in mysterious ways, and the decisions you make aren't just yours, but His too...Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-59234406494020374912007-06-18T01:50:00.000-05:002007-06-18T01:53:55.591-05:00<div style="text-align: center;">for pictures from saturday night<br />click<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">vv<br />>> <a href="http://toriohlerking.blogspot.com/">here</a> <<<br />^^<br /></div>Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-75214016139124815182007-06-18T01:39:00.000-05:002007-06-18T01:43:29.161-05:00irks my nerves<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >abortion<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /></span></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 14);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >what gives any man the right to play God? some only find abortion right because they see this being as not having a soul-almost as if the baby isn't "alive" in their eyes until it is born. lets think about this, if the baby isn't alive before it's born that would mean that you have a piece of human flesh growing inside of a body with almost fully formed parts that look like yours, move like yours, and feel like yours. does that make you dead or alive? what is the definition of a soul? www.dictionary.com says a soul is:</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >the principle of </span><span style="font-size:130%;"><b style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">life, feeling, thought, and action in humans,</b></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" > regarded as a distinct entity separate from the body, and commonly held to be separable in existence from the body; the spiritual part of humans as distinct from the physical part.</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >so if you believe you have a soul you better believe that an aborted baby had one too!!</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >Jeremiah 1:5 "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you..."</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >Psalm 13913-16 "For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise you for I am </span><span style="font-size:130%;"><b style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works; and that my soul knows very well.</b></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" > My frame was not hidden from You, when I was made in secret, and </span><span style="font-size:130%;"><b style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">skilfully</b></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" > wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. </span><span style="font-size:130%;"><b style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">Your eyes saw substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they are written, the days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them</b></span><big><small><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >"</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >that is God's power. He has your days known before you even live them! He knows you before you are born...and people are still willing to murder this precious fruit of God...</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >Psalm 127:3 "Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb is a </span><span style="font-size:130%;"><b style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);">reward</b></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >"</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >Jesus even says in Matthew 19:14 "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >Jesus loves the little children, but not murderers </span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >so guys remember that when you can't fight the urge to keep in in your pants</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >and girls remember this when you are "in love" and make stupid choices</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >abortion may make things at the time easier-but an eternity in hell won't be fun</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >Blessed are the merciful,</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >for they will be shown mercy.</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /><br /><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >yeah, i posted this on myspace too</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >and i don't care that it's harsh</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >it's true</span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);font-size:130%;" >~Misty</span><br /></small></big></span></span></div>Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-55696688962118279562007-06-16T23:53:00.000-05:002007-06-17T00:24:49.776-05:00wow, what a day :)today was so much fun<br />i got up early<br />**it didn't make me happy**<br />but the fact that i got to hang out with some of the coolest Christians ever<br />**made me happy**<br />we painted at the d-ville dream center<br />bringin some love to d-ville<br />ya herrrrrd?<br />ok, so that was so stupid...but oh well<br /><br />praying at the dream center after we were done was really cool<br />just realizing that it was a school gym<br />and now it is an awesome place to worship<br />to reach out to that hurting world<br />so yeah it...<br />**made me happy**<br /><br />so after about an hour of begging<br />tori finally got me to agree to go eat sushi<br />i love sushi<br />i'm just broke<br />she promised to help me out and i drug my brother along<br />it was fun<br />everyone attending this event would be:<br />Emily Woo<br />Jordan Michael<br />Tori<br />Landy Dandy<br />Ariel<br />Ariel's friend Josh<br />and Me<br />after watching ariel try sushi<br />we needed more fun<br />sooooo<br />jordan put wasabi in emily's drink<br />and here is where everything gets just stinkin funny<br /><br />i happen to keep a vandalism kit in my car...<br />like saran wrap<br />and toilet paper<br />wellll<br />jordan parked his car at target and he drove my car to sushi and back to pick his up<br />and on the way back emily and i came up with a plan<br />and tori was an "innocent bystander"<br />who helped keep jordan oblivious to the plan<br />which played out like this:<br /><br />we pulled up at target and we all had to go potty<br />so we told landon and jordan we would come find them over by the games and stuff<br />they went one way and we went the other<br />well, we sent tori to the guys and told her to tell them we were looking at purses or make up or something<br />while we were really outside in the parking lot saran wrapping jordan's car<br />:)<br />**made me happy**<br />tori called me going "where in the store are y'all, they're about to close"<br />which just made me laugh harder<br />so we got back in my car and drove back to a parking spot<br />and as soon as we got out i saw tori, landon, and jordan walking out of the store<br />i just busted out laughing and jordan was no longer oblivious<br />i drove him to his car and we were all laughing so hard<br />and he like climbed in through the window<br />it was the greatest thing ever to watch him crack the door a little bit just so he could reach the ignition so he could roll down the window-we will have pictures of this online soon<br />:)<br />then jordan took my pink play-dough and a toy snake i keep in my back window<br />to keep cats from getting on my car<br />and the funniest thing was jordan tied the snake to the saran wrap<br />and said:<br />"you just better hope mr. snakey makes it through the ride"<br />we were laughing so hard at him we couldn't breathe<br />then he decides he's going to drive down the interstate with the saran wrap on his car<br />and when we got off the interstate and watched the faces of the innocent passer-by's<br />we saw this old man<br />giving jordan's car the best, most confused look i've ever seen<br />and at the light by perkins on highland ang. mousso pulled up next to jordan and was like<br />"what happened to you?"<br />keep in mind the entire time we are laughing so hard we can't breathe<br />it was so great<br /><br />in the end we stopped at starbucks on highland<br />and jordan took the saran wrap off of his car<br />which is now in my back window of my car<br /><br />it was a great day<br />...it...<br />**made me happy**<br /><br />~MistyMistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-67806530267284459892007-06-13T23:48:00.000-05:002007-06-14T00:16:33.291-05:00i was thinking-i know amazing right?so, i'm reading the slammin Word<br />and i just kinda found this<br />and it made me think<br />it's Jeremiah 9:23-26<br />and thus says...in the NKJV-haha:<br /><br />Thus says the lord:<br /><br />"Let not the wise man glory in his wisdom,<br />Let no the mighty man glory in his might,<br />Nor let the rich man glory in his riches;<br />But let him who glories glory in this,<br />That he understands and knows Me,<br />That I am the LORD, exercising lovingkindness, judgment, and righteousness in the earth.<br />For these things I delight." says the LORD.<br /><br />"Behold, the days are coming," says the LORD, "that I will punish all who are circumcised with the uncircumcised-Egypt, Judah, Edom, and the people of Ammon, Moab, and all who are in the farthest corners, who dwell in the wilderness. For all these nations are uncircumcised, and all the house of Israel are uncircumcised in the heart."<br /><br />this starts out letting you know that God wants you to glory in him-not the world you live in and not the things you have or the job you have or the power you have-but the world he made, the love He gives and the mercy He shows. it's one of those points that makes you realize that he really is everything. like Matthew 6:19-21 says-in my summed up version-is not to put your glory in this world where "moth and rust destroy" but put it in heaven-where nothing can get to it. and what's really awesome about this is verse 21 says: "for where your treasure is there your heart will be also." that just speaks to me-and i don't know if i've said it on here before-but i know i've said it before- is that this life is a test-not only the little things God gives you, but also just the life in general. are you going to praise Him with all that you have, or are you going to let what you have shine more in your life than you are Him? remember, He is the one who put us here and gave us the ability to have what we have, the least we can do is put him first.<br /><br />then, the second part of this verse, about the judging of the circumcised with the uncircumcised, means a lot to me too. it is showing not only that we are all going to be judged the same way, that God doesn't favor anyone-everyone is going to have the same "checklist" when they are being judged, the people who were circumcised will not have a say before the uncircumcised-and i see it as black will not have say before white, white will not have a say before indian, iranian will not have a say before an asian-just showing that no matter what the difference is in where you are from He will judge us all the same. like it says, about being "uncircumcised in your heart," it's saying are you glorying him in your heart? just because you glory him on the outside doesn't mean you are really glorying him on the inside.<br /><br />this goes with what tweezy said during worship tonight. is it hype or just emotion during worship at church? it's what's in your heart. if what you do on the outside doesn't match how you are in the inside it's not going to get you brownie points. i don't know, i might just be rambling, but it's just kinda food for thought...<br /><br />>4 with <3<br />~MistyMistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-31103483643609435282007-06-12T02:49:00.001-05:002007-06-12T03:07:21.862-05:00ok<div style="text-align: center;">so i'm sitting in my bed<br />looking through different sites down the side of <a href="http://toriohlerking.blogspot.com/">tori's blog</a><br />and ended up on the <a href="http://www.childrenscup.org/v2/">children's cup home page</a><br />i started to read through the stories of the kids in africa<br />and it just astounded me<br />i know there are kids less fortunate<br />but to think of how these particular ones live<br />it is just heart-braking<br />i know that i have a call on my life<br />and even though sometimes i want to avoid it<br />i'm not going to<br />i want to be a part of changing lives<br />not sitting in a cushy chair in an office<br />or listening to rich peoples problems<br />but handing out food to children who weigh less than i did at the age of 5 at the age of 10<br />teaching kids who never got that kind of attention<br />just helping in any way i can<br />i'm sick of being the way our culture has made me<br />it's time to go into a survival of the fittest environment<br />and watch God completely ruin me<br />i'm so excited just thinking about it<br />~Misty~<br /><br />haha-i just opened my Bible to a random place because i wanted to use a quote<br />and it just so happens that the page i opened it to had something that everyone probably knows<br />and kinda has something to do with everything<br />but regardless...<br /><br />Matthew 5:3-10<br /><p> <sup id="en-TNIV-23244">3</sup> "<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">Blessed are the poor in spirit, </span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"> for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.</span> </p><p> <sup id="en-TNIV-23245">4</sup> Blessed are those who mourn,<br /> for they will be comforted. </p><p> <sup id="en-TNIV-23246">5</sup> Blessed are the meek,<br /> for they will inherit the earth. </p><p> <sup id="en-TNIV-23247">6</sup> Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,<br /> for they will be filled. </p><p> <sup id="en-TNIV-23248">7</sup> Blessed are the merciful,<br /> for they will be shown mercy. </p><p> <sup id="en-TNIV-23249">8</sup> Blessed are the pure in heart,<br /> for they will see God. </p><p> <sup id="en-TNIV-23250">9</sup> Blessed are the peacemakers,<br /> for they will be called children of God. </p><p> <sup id="en-TNIV-23251">10</sup> Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,<br /> for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. </p><br /><br /><br /></div>Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-67881095535025002742007-06-03T22:34:00.000-05:002007-06-03T22:55:04.600-05:00sun=painful<div align="center">sooo, i got the bright idea to go tubing with my friends mimi and wayne over the weekend</div><div align="center">and i'm going to tell you a really interesting story-kind of a lesson...</div><div align="center"></div><div align="center">we got to the tubing place and they checked the ice chest-which only had bottled water, green tea, jones' soda, and lunchables in it</div><div align="center">we paid</div><div align="center">got on the little bus thinggy that takes us to the start point</div><div align="center">and got in our little tube thinggys</div><div align="center">and we start floating</div><div align="center">all is wonderful</div><div align="center">we are relaxing floating down the river</div><div align="center">nice pretty day</div><div align="center">the SUN is out</div><div align="center">not a cloud in the sky</div><div align="center">and then mimi looked at me and asked if i had the sun block...</div><div align="center">me and wayne looked at each other</div><div align="center">then at mimi</div><div align="center">and i just though oh crud</div><div align="center">i left the sun block in the car</div><div align="center">what really stinks is that i am/was really pale milky white</div><div align="center">and when you float down a river for 4 hours</div><div align="center">with no sun block</div><div align="center">you get sun burnt</div><div align="center">and i think i'm the worst one out of us three</div><div align="center">i'm swolen and in pain</div><div align="center">it was fun</div><div align="center">but now...</div><div align="center">i don't think i'm ever going back</div><div align="center">because i'm terrified of ever getting this sunburnt again</div><div align="center">it really hurts</div><div align="center">all i could do last night was cry because it was sooo bad</div><div align="center">so, now it's sunday night- a full day since i got burnt, and it still hurts to move</div><div align="center">expically walk</div><div align="center">because the top of my feet are burnt-including my toes</div><div align="center">so the moral of the story is:</div><div align="center">never go tubing down a river for 4 hours and forget the sun block</div><div align="center">~Misty~</div>Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-67735827076871213802007-05-31T03:30:00.000-05:002007-05-31T03:31:21.163-05:00Drugs...<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size:85%;">aren't cool</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> or "make you a better person"</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> it's straight up stupid</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> killing your body one pill, puff, snort, sip or shot at a time</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> but we are the ones who are missing out</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> who like to keep our bodies from decomposing from the inside out</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> we are stuck up for not "just trying it once"</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> if that makes me a loser</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> i'll be a loser</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> but remember</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> the only thing your winning is regret</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> because one day </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> you will find out your liver is failing</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> or your lungs are covered in cancer</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> or you die because of a stroke from taking a little too much</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> of your "under control" usage</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> but this makes you cool</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> makes you happy</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> and more relaxed</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> is an hour of an high worth a life of problems</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> or your life all together?</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> think about it</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> much love</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> >4 with <3</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> ~Misty~</span></div>Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-56199797949791544162007-05-24T00:45:00.000-05:002007-05-24T01:09:18.179-05:00wow<div style="text-align: center;">tonight at refuge was awesome<br />good ol chad daniel was preaching and he always blows my mind<br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />there was no message<br />there never is with him<br />haha<br />but still, he said a lot of things that just hit me<br />but, i'm going to start from the beginning...<br />God created the heavens and the earth....<br />wait, that was a little too far<br /><br />ok, worship=awesome<br /><br />i started out praying during worship that i put down my guard and learn to trust God like never before. a few post's back i was kinda talking about doubt and trust issues, so that's what i prayed for. that prayer at the beginning of worship stayed with me the rest of the night-i was just kinda lost in worship for a while. it was like something was keeping me focused-which is my problem. i always get kinda bored when i do one thing too long-but for once i didn't have an ADD moment. it just made the worship so much more intense. when chad got up to start his message/stories/whatever else he said it was just awesome. he started out kinda iffy, but at the end he was talking about things holding you back from going after God with your all-which is something i've heard a message on before at the youth rally a while back, but this time was different. what i feel is holding me back is my parents...but it's not. i use that as an excuse, but i never really prayed about it. i need to just get over that-because whether i like what they say or not it's just words. they aren't physically holding me back from anything, and i should actually be thankful for that. i look at everything as poor me b /c my parents are weird about me going to refuge and closer, but actually there are people who have parents that don't tell them about the magnificence of God-their parent's don't understand it. that person goes through life without knowing what life is really about and what their true calling is. i'm so selfish compared to those people-and i definitely need to pray more about that. anyway-back to putting it all into God during worship....<br /><br />i went up when he asked if anyone needed to be prayed for and as soon as i shut my eyes and began to pray i just cried and i couldn't stop. they just poured and it wasn't until i started just telling God that i loved him more than anything that they began to stop and i started just getting overly happy-i don't know, it was just crazy.<br /><br />i'm so excited because this is just the beginning of summer and i know that God is going to mold me and test me more than ever this summer and i'm so excited to see what limits he pushes me to and how different i come out on the other end. i have 2 months that i can devote totally to Him-who's with me?<br /><br />oh, and i'm going to see pirates of the caribbean tomorrow<br />:)<br />woot woot<br /></div>Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-47820099230185944532007-05-21T00:38:00.000-05:002007-05-21T01:06:13.056-05:00Remember...<div style="text-align: center;">Happy Birthday Kaitlin Aydell<br />5/21/93-2/21/07<br /><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://i97.photobucket.com/albums/l201/sassytiger08/kaitlin.jpg" border="0" alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" /></a><br /><br /> Today is supposed to be Kaitlin's 14 birthday. She would of just made it out of the seventh grade at French Settlement Junior High. She would be swimming and goofing off, or mud riding with her best friend Shayla. She would be acting like a normal girl during the summer time. Not a care in the world, nothing to hold her back. But, she was taken from us. Just the thought of it is unfathomable to me, but it happened. I was at the funeral. I saw the faces. I saw the tears. I heard the nice words said about her. But it's never enough to help anyone who really knew her. I never did, I wasn't that lucky.<br />I never took the time to cry. Not at the wake, or the funeral, or even at school in the classrooms full of people talking about it. No, it hits me now. I feel so guilty because I'm 17 with a life ahead of me-she would of been 14 today. She never got to have a homecoming or a prom. She never got to have a sweet 16 or a license. She didn't even get to see High School. <br />I just pray that she's in heaven now, sharing a piece of birthday cake with Jesus, watching us-not understanding why we are crying.<br /></div>Mistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5226227862624270513.post-28130123258956785282007-05-06T01:37:00.000-05:002007-05-06T02:02:16.733-05:00blahnesstonight, although it took a while to click, i learned something at late night....<br /><br />on my way home i learned that i had heard the words that will make any 17 year old female high school student go completely nuts **me for example**<br /><br />Selfishness....<br /><br />i officially hate that word...because up until tonight i had used it against so many people, except for myself. i started thinking, and the more i thought the sadder i got, but i needed to talk to someone, anyone, not necessarily to talk back to me, but to just sit on the other end of the phone and let it all register and chime in when they knew it was safe or smart....so i called shae. always the best to talk to, especially when you have a problem, you just don't know what it is yet. so i rambled and rambled and rambled, and i think i have come to a conclusion, that comes with a bit of a confession and ends with a question.<br /><br />every time i pray i come to a point where i just think, and my mind and my heart are almost fighting over whether God is real, or God is a made up story. of course i know what is right, but my mind contradicts everything. it's the worst feeling i've ever felt, but i can't get that thought out of my mind. i've tried praying harder, i've tried reading my bible, and i've tried just ignoring it. well, nothings changed.<br /><br />i've always looked at things as this needs to go this way for me, but if it goes bad for them, oops, oh well. i always knew that was wrong, and something in the back of my head would tell me so, but i always found a way to ignore that. i can sit in front of someone and tear them apart with words, completely making them look like dirt, just to make myself feel better, and even though my mind tells me otherwise, i just ignore it and keep on with my completely devastating verbal rampage on everyone within an ears reach of me. i've had people tell me one time to watch what i say to other people, even people they didn't like, because whether i realized it or not i was hurting them, and that what i was doing wasn't right....and i just ignored them too. <br /><br />this entire thing all boils down to this question:<br /><br />how is it so easy to ignore those thoughts telling me that i'm wrong, but so hard to ignore the voice telling me that the God i serve is wrong?<br /><br />please help<br /><br />~MistyMistyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05114397105471905499noreply@blogger.com1